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++Fish&Chips++
Only my friends know who is the 你.. i dunno will u be viewing my blog.. i guess not..
Have been wandering at my room recently and suddenly notices stuff u gave mi last year.. a Minnie and Mickey mouse during our first month.. a bottle that contain different sections of m&m colours as a midyear motivation gift..a wooden basket you made for my birthday.. maybe im much immature in the past, hence i could'nt see the effort u made in the relationship..
And i feel dejected out of the sudden..
how u sacrifies ur time when it's ur Olvl year, to do the basket and bottle just for mi and all i do is just a thank you.. yet u didnt whined about anything..And i didnt make ANYTHING for you.. And all u do is to give mi love yet all i do is to recieve yet not giving anything back to you.and i ask for more.. but u also, kept slient.. i really nv realise anything that time.. im truly a freakly sotong.. and also remember clearly, there a time when i was half sleep in the MRT train.. My friend asked u why u didnt bring mi to ur friends outing, and u replied tt u r worried tt i may get bored.. and YET u dun mind being bored being with mi and my friends.. im totally speechless..
i cant control myself from replaying the memories images we had together..have been sobbing amost everynight when i listen to this song.. it hurts mi.. the lyrics is totally what i'm feeling now..i will grin like a moron whenever i thought of our sweet past, i will shed tears when ever i thought of how i treated you and how i lose you.... am i too emotional or what? y i suddenly feels hurt over a relationship that happens a year ago and is nearly forgotten by everyone?
Everything seems to be happening so fast.. too fast that i couldnt do anything to stop it.. i know i'm really the worst bitch ever exist in this world.. i know i'm really is one.. really hate the me now.. the helpless, pathetic mi..
but all i wanna say.. i am really really sorry that i hurt u so much in the past.. i'm not aware how u treasure mi.. till recently, when i suddenly think of the past.. im so immatute..so childish..so ruthless..so stronghead..so naive..so STUPID.. and how different you were from other people..
when i thought how i treated you, and yet you kept quiet.. it's all my fault.. you tresure mi truly yet i treat you worst..
'My best memo' what does that mean? Dun you detest me? you're suppose to hate mi! i treated you so badly and yet it's ur best memo???
i know it's been one year.. i know it's too late for mi to realise my faults.. and it's ludicrous to feel sad about incidents that happen a year ago.. but.. but.. i'm.. really sad... i really dunno why.. wo hao xiang xi huan hui ni le.. maybe there's what retribution are for.. =))
